Leslie

this is what we do everynight

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 03:06:29 GMT

st louis night 1

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 16:28:30 GMT

hey leslie who is that creepy looking guy over there??

i dont know kathryn he looks like a serial killer/rapist/child molester

hey guys!!!!...you wanna come over and watch some everybody loves raymond??

moving

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 02:34:05 GMT

hi
im moving to st louis
on sunday
that is all

try not to miss me

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:36:18 GMT

i need to realize i cant rely on anyone unless they are somewhat benefiting.....

friend video

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 06:53:57 GMT

hi

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 15:46:59 GMT

im nervous!!!!.....im nervous!!!!......how are you???.....we have a show tonight!!!.....im nervous!!!!....i think im going to do bad.....i hope not though.....as long as kara sounds fine i dont think anyone should notice.....nervous....YAY,,,,,

dynamic duo

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 17:30:42 GMT

video time!!!!

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 02:49:09 GMT

typical day with kara and i

music by kara beth rasure

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 21:43:11 GMT

I want something real. Something I can feel and grab hold of. Right now. The world isn't a nice place and sometimes people are mean but only because the world is mean and unhappy.

sofa king we todd did

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 06:18:06 GMT

woooo

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 06:17:19 GMT

jebediah

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 01:24:55 GMT

i love jebediah
i love that he makes me happier than anything on this earth
i love how he smells
i love when we cuddle
i love when he bites me softly and when i say no he makes a cute sad face
i love his snout
i love his blondie blonde hair
i love how he chews on my bras and shirts because they smell like me
i love his sad little face when i leave and how he refuses to give me kisses
i love when i come to jessicas he jumps all over me and kisses me
i love when me and jessica lay together and he lays between (and snack too) us like a happy family
i love when he makes me carry him up the stairs because he is a pup and doesnt know how to climb them
i love him
everything about him
he is my heart
jebediah

in other news....steppingstone tomorrow...wish me luck....new job tuesday wish me luck....please help me out and be supportive and try not to drink around me much....

sad

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 02:23:06 GMT

Depression: Mental illness characterized by sadness, general apathy, a loss of self-esteem, feelings of guilt, and, at times, suicidal tendencies.

I've never felt this way in my entire life. I can't get out of bed until ive had around 13 hours of sleep. I can't leave the house unless someone comes to pick me up and makes me go somewhere. I've never felt this worthless in my entire life. I have plenty of things I should be happy about. I'm in a band with two amazing people and I have fun with them. I have an amazing roomate and an amazing best friend since the 6th grade and all around amazing people surround me. I'm starting work tomorrow so that should help. I haven't taken my medication in 3 days but I've felt like this for over a month. I really despise money. If your parents were "rich" when you were younger and in school generally you were one of the popular kids. When you grow up and have kids and get married (because thats what we are suppose to do right?) you're friends are also determined by the amount of money you have. You will work your ass off just to say you have money when in all reality you never have time to enjoy anything because thats all you do. Don't worry though you can still say you have your membership to some nice country club and your wife can have new designer purses every season. Is that how life works? Your worth is determined by how much money you make? In some cases no but in most cases yes. I think being "rich" is being genuinely happy and doing whatever you want as long as you can support yourself and having loving relationships with the ones around you. Now if you work your ass off to have these nice things I'm pretty sure you arent happy doing what you are doing or having healthy relationships with the ones around you because you are to busy worrying about making money and impressing other people with your fancy cars and things. I know I shouldn't judge how people may live but thats how I view things so I'm sorry I just had to rant. I know it isn't like this everywhere but I will not live my life like that. I can't. I talked to my mom today and I might go to a place for a couple of weeks. I really think it will help me. Hmm we will see. Wish me luck on my new job tomorrow!

we are ridiculous

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 23:16:08 GMT

barf

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 19:40:45 GMT

so i was suppose to start my job today but of course i have to get fucking sick....i can't go 20 minutes without not shitting....this is ridiculous....it was just orintation but i didn't want to risk having to leave for the bathroom every 10 minutes...whatever....so i start next week....in other news.....oh wait i have none...well maybe i will be able to lose a few tummy pounds since it looks like eating isnt going to be much of an option...

T REX!!

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 08:25:12 GMT

AMAZING

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 02:32:24 GMT

my life is amazing....that is all....

HAPPY!!!!!

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 20:50:29 GMT

hooooray jessica and i finally got a dog!!!!....we drove nearly four hours there and back to get him but it was worth it....he is ADORABLE!!!....he is laying right beside me right now....we realized quickly that we are going to have to watch him non stop for awhile....we are taking shifts....we are trying to potty train him right now and its actually going pretty well....we gave him a bath first thing though....the entire story of how we got him is pretty nuts and where we had to go and who we got him from....im really happy because i think i will stay in a lot more now and hang out with him instead of going out....im usually a little angry if i dont get to drink or anything but last night i was 100% happy with taking him out in the cold rain and waiting for him to poop....anyway im sure none of you care but here is a picture......

good stuff

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:43:37 GMT

"Love, they say, enslaves and passion is a demon and many have been lost for love. I know this is true, but I know too that without love we grope the tunnels of our lives and never see the sun. When i fell in love it was as though I looked into a mirror for the first time and saw myself. I liften my hand in wonderment and felt my cheeks, my neck. This was me. And when I had looked at myself and grown accustomed to who I was, I was not afraid to hate parts of me because I wanted to be worthy of the mirror bearer."

video killed the radio star

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 04:53:18 GMT

hands down

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 22:32:21 GMT

probably the WORST 24 hours in my ENTIRE life.....fuck me....

stoned and bones

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 03:40:56 GMT

very odd day
went to the doctor and got my test back
not the best news in the world
don't feel like talking about it on here
if you care and want to know ask me
my trim on my car was fixed today
a nice random guy helped me with it
i talked to him for awhile and it was so scary how much we had in common
it felt like God sent me an angel
it was fate

also last night was really surreal for me and i don't know what to think or what i'm doing but it feels nice

+

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 23:27:37 GMT

lets talk about some good things in my life...i like to do that every once in awhile....

+++ my sister graduates boot camp this week which i cant attend :(
+ im doing better i havent taken klopopin in two days
+ im going to the doctor tomorrow to get test results which will hopefully be okay
+ i have two days off in a row
+ i can support myself financially and be able to help my friends out when they need money
+ i have good friends even though i dont see them much and i probably neglect them
+ i have a snuggle buddy that cooks me food
+- i think drinking gives me anxiety because i havent drank in 2 days and ironically i havnet had panic attacks

how about some negative things

- i dont remember the last time i showered nor when i could have found time
- my armpits smell and i have been spraying air freshener on myself for the past two days here at work
- liz and i are bad parents
- our apartment is a shit hole right now and it makes me want to hang myself when i walk in
- i love our two cats but it just cant work out
- my lip is busted open

protege

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 20:01:25 GMT

protégés, protégées

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 05:22:30 GMT

ive been bored and trying to stay sober more so than i used to and i keep making these stupid little things but they entertain me........